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(12:45 a.m.)

Okay. Let's hope this recorder works, right? I'd write a letter but my handwriting is like crap.

(Nervous coughing, tapping.)

Okay. So. This is for my future baby.

You know, when I was in the middle of my teens I used to wish—a desperate, sobbing, emo girl wish—that I'd wake up on a white sheet bed and there'd be a doctor telling my mom that I wouldn't make it. I wanted that so badly, I just wanted to be gone, I was begging to be gone but I couldn't get the courage to do anything because I was a coward. Or maybe I was just smart enough to know not to. I'm still not sure.

(Silence. Swallowing.)

Worse was the fact that my mom knew I was buying scar cream and she didn't say anything. I think I made it obvious on purpose, leaving out razors and stuff like that because I wanted her to care, internally. I wanted her to say something like, "Oh Moe! What're you doing to yourself? Of course I care!" Then there'd be some Disney-style tears and hugging and we'd be the happiest people on earth.

(Laugh.)

Yeah… but you know what? She didn't. She didn't say anything. She didn't want to say anything because she was too absorbed in her own sad life and she never thought of helping me with mine.

But I guess that's how it usually goes, you know?

I don't want you to think that's how it usually goes.

So, I made a promise, the kind that people usually think up when they're done fighting their emotional monster and they just want everything to be over.

I will never forget.

It's not that I don't want to grow up 'cause I do, really, but the memory of living alone for the first bit of my life still haunts me and I try to swallow up all the ghosts but it's just… really hard.

Okay, okay. I'm gonna make sense now. Gimme a second.

(A beat.)

I remember reading that people usually overstock on things they didn't have in their childhood, when they're older and they're off by themselves.  

(A sigh.)

Please remind me of this when I'm old and losing my head, okay?

Love, Moe. Er, your mom. You know what I mean.

See you in a couple months.
Finally something! Hooray!
I need to write more.
It's literally painful not to write because I haven't written enough in such a while.

Oh and yeah, I'll try to write something better next time :XD: But I was in the mood for sappy-happy emo girl, y'know?

Oh and as always, critiques would be awesome :)
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frightenthelittlesin Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
It's soo nice to read something a little different. (Iknow, I know, every piece of literature is unique and stuff) but THIS is an amazing idea to ban you words in the form of a recording!!!!! (and you deserve all that exclamation marks) :D

Thre have been so many texts about scoring and this emo-kind-of-doing and they sound more or less all the same. You on the other hand described the actual situation that forced that lyrical Me to behave this way. The reader is able to form a picture of the social surrounding and the family life, which is missing in most of those self pitying text. All in all this is a refreshing way to deal with emothions and I did enjoy reading it!! Keep up the good work ^^
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Bambi-Hawkins Featured By Owner Feb 29, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
aw! that's SO GOOD! I could TOTALLY feel the emotion in that. AMAZING!
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willwriteforhearts Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2012  Student Writer
ahhhg, thanks so much!
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Ililn Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is really good! :) sad, but in a brutally honest way that is really captivating. Nice job!
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willwriteforhearts Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student Writer
oh thank you so much! :aww:
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KaitForest Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2012   Writer
emotional and hooking. even though i don't know the whole story, but i want to.

i like filling in gaps. i like this. :D
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willwriteforhearts Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2012  Student Writer
ahhhhh, thanks so much :D

yay! I'm trying to post more writing. Finals are creeping around the corner though >_>
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everdeen13 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
...This is just about the sweetest thing ever. It probably didn't help that I was listening to this [link] , but ah well
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willwriteforhearts Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2012  Student Writer
oh my gosh, thank you so much :D
hehe, awesome, songs are awesome for writing/art, aren't they?
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everdeen13 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This really is gorgeous <3
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